Friday, June 21, 2013

I ain't become myself without you all =)

Time passed so fast, reading back old posts in this blog..
Feeling was like so cool, looking self getting growing older and older..
But the most thing I think that am I mature or just pretend to be mature?..
I had already step in the year of 19 for three month and 19 days, wasn't being that childish again..
I seeing responsible, friendship, leadership, future planning was getting that IMPORTANT.

In the year of 2012, I had a relationship and I appreciate it. Well, it's wasn't go like what I thinking or planning, but life goes on.. What should I do besides just keep emo-ing? =( , getting up, clean up my tears, clean up the messed I had made that year, fully walk-in the new life of collage and teenage with friendship.
Yet, in my eyes the most important thing was studies, future, and friendship and well families =). Ain't nothing important than these. Sometimes, I just like to have a blank thinking about what would my life become without my friends, it is that misty until I could not imagine?
Well, who care's =P
I have you all =D 

Year 2013,
The starting of this year was a sad and heart breaking year for me..
The relationship wasn't go that nice, just ended six days before 1/1 came.
Backing home, getting like so awkward and so hard for me, I scare to face these thing.. I scare to see she..
but although how miserable it be, I still have to walk-on. This is my life, face everything, ain't no escape.
Being back to single, I knew that I was a people that got girl no friend de =P (PS SORRY!)
Well, now ain't thinking like that..
Friend and Relationship had to be equally balance, I should not be like I be in 2012.
Equally giving spaces to each other, not to sticking to each other, that should the relationship be.  

Without these thing, I ain't being grown up..
Without these thing, I ain't become more like to talk more and speak more..
Without these thing, I ain't become that confidence..
Without these thing, I ain't know that I was important in others eyes..
Without these thing, I ain't know what is love..
Without these thing, I ain't know what is true friendship..
Without these thing, I ain't find that who was the real me..